New Year…New Beginnings: Personal Goals – Changing My Mindset Part 2

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Changing your mindset just happens to be one of the most difficult things that I have struggled with over the years. As some of you may or may not know, I have been in a past marriage that was extremely abusive, both physically and emotionally. From that experience, I had began to literally deteriorate in mind, body and in spirit. I just could not understand why I, while being a married woman, was so unhappy. I felt unworthy, unattractive, “not fine enough” (his words, not mine), and just plain stupid. These are words that were issued to me on a daily basis from my ex-husband. My entire self worth was worth a half penny, basically non-existent.

Well, of course now I am happily re-married to the love of my life now and we have a wonderful marriage and relationship with Christ and a beautiful family.  But I still had times where I would battle with self esteem issues where I felt that I wasn’t good enough or could not do anything. I would constantly start things without finishing them, get involved with things and not come through with it in the end. This happened not because I didn’t want them to, but rather, I would constantly hear these negative words inside me that would tell me that I could not do this or that. So I would just quit…

These negative thought patterns would often time cripple me where I began to suffer deeply with anxiety and panic attacks and severe depression constantly. So severe that I remember losing 6 pounds in one week and as you can see, I am not very big at all.

Well, it wasn’t until after I met my husband and he began to share the Gospel of Christ with me like no other person ever has done. It was then when I began to see that I was really worth something! The most high God did care about me… he was there with me when I was going through. He NEVER left me once! That is when I began to really change my mindset about everything! I had been crippled so long that I did not even stop to talk to God about “mindset”. The scripture says:

Phillipians 4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever thingsare lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

My thought patterns were contrary to the Word of the most high God…My thought patterns were all about “what I couldn’t do” or “what I was not worth”. They were ALL lies. The devil really set me up to fail yet my awesome and mighty Father redeemed me and placed upon His lap like a child and whispered to me from His Word to remind me this:

Psalm 139:13-14 For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.

Praise the mighty Father in Heaven! HalleluYAH!!!

In closing, I will leave you with this, nothing happens by chance, yet all things can happen through a changed mindset in reverence of our Father in Heaven. Praise Yahuah, glory be to His name! Amen.

Blessings to you my sisters and until tomorrow in our series, have a great weekend!!!